You make me sick...

yesterday i went to the doctors because i have had a stomic ache... well i went there and found out i have two infections... something i can't pronoun... and my major problem is unknwn as of this time... i am scarred shitless... i don't want to be like this... i have to take meds and all this crap... i get to go get an ultra sound on thursday... i don't want to know what i have.... isn't it enought that i am ill... do i need more wronge with me? how did i get this fucked up? god my life is like a glass filled with water.... and it's cracking... soon everything will be out in the open......

Last night my rents yelled at me.... i haven't talked to them since....... i don't plan to either......

Pin-up

Ryan has been showing everyone my pictures.... i mean i am not wearing clothes in some. but i guess that it evens out... i mean i have shown people his pictures so is it fair?

cry's of pain

Today at my school there was a car act-a-dent and two boys and one girl was involded.... the boy and girl are in the hosptial....... the other boy is dead....... i walked past his girlfriend in the hallway....... she was crying and screaming at god.... she keep asking why god? i don't think i have ever heard a cry of pain so sad or depressing..... she just layed lump on the floor........ as everyone watched her..... god that was the worst sound in the world...

Planned Parenthood

SO i want on the pill.... and if my mom says no. i am going up to pp to get it. so i need to start saving.... anyways i was also at the site and FINALLY i found something that talks about how life has a sexual part.

Why is sexuality so important?

All of us are sexual. Our sexuality includes

* our body and how our body works
* our biological sex
* our gender — our biological, social, and legal status as girls and boys, women and men
* our gender identity — our feelings about our gender
* our sexual orientation — straight, gay, or bisexual
* our values about life, love, and the people in our lives

And sexuality influences how we feel about all of these things and how we experience the world.

Don't be...

Don't be too good, for I will miss you
Don't be too careing, for I might like you
Don't be too sweet, for I might fall for you

Ramdon Quotes

quotes

there's no past tense in loving someone;
either you do,
or you never did

sometimes maybe lost is best

Somewhere between our laughs, long talks on the phone, stupid fights, && our jokes, we fell in love.

i will be with you again

welcome to the revolution.
it's time for the weak to find retribution.
it's time for the lost to find a home.
it's time for believers to speak
into a microphone and sing.

You and I could make the whole world so jealous.

I know I shouldn't like him, because I know it could never work. So I convince myself I don't. Then I see him. He'll smile or put his arm around me, or just say... anything. And then all that logic and convincing myself just evaporates.

You're not even mine and I'm scared to lose you.

I know you want it just as badly as I do. What I don't know is why you can't just take a chance on me.

Do you honestly think anyone else is on my mind when I'm listening to that song?

If you aren't just a little bit depressed, then you aren't
paying very much attention to what's going on in the world.
//Pete Wentz

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming.
or the moment of truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive.
//Goo Goo Dolls

I have more feelings for you than any other girl ever will

You wouldn't be here if there wasn't something missing

I'm not a jealous person. I just want to punch every girl in the face that gives you a 2nd glance

Who would have ever thought it'd be me and you?

And if you think that I'll let you go, you're out of your mind

Really, I'm nothing exciting. I like simple things in life. I read like a nerd. I shop until I'm broke. Just like every other girl. But still you chose me. Maybe I'm more lucky than I thought

a part of me
wants to erase you
from my past
but another part of me
still wants you
in my future

star light; star bright;
first star I see tonight.
I wish I may. I wish I might.
have someone wish for me tonight.

I wonder when i pass by does his stomach do a flip? does he get nervous? does he ignore his friends, just to look at me? does he wait to see my smile? does he get sweaty palms? does he think to himself ... "oh gosh here she comes"?

Guys drink to forget about girls, girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor, when girls are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can't forgive, girls can forgive, but can't forget. When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl, when girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last.

when was the last time you've looked in a mirror?
'cause you've changed, yeah you've changed

the one thing i'll never get is, how
you turned out like ALL THE REST

if one day you notice that i
haven't talked to you in awhile,
it's not because i don't care anymore ;;
it's because you pushed me away.

dont look for the hottest guy or the most
popular jock. look for the guy that makes
you feel like you're actually worth a
second glance. the one that makes you happy
to be the person you dont have to try to be,
or want to be. the guy who isnt like all the
rest.. but completely different. yet, its why
you like him, because he isn't like any guy
you've ever known. he's just him

Listen to your friends when
they tell you hes a bad thing
because they can see what
you refuse not to

You can't swim in a world this shallow

Hey, unfaithful, I will teach you to be stronger
Hey, ungraceful, I will teach you to forgive
Hey, unloving, I will love you.

Hes not worth your tears if,
you're not worth his heart

I don't forgive people because I'm weak.
I forgive them because I'm strong enough
to understand that everyone makes mistakes

i always feel like ive said the wrong things. i constantly
obess over what i couldve done better. i wish i could just
let it all go

i couldnt tell you why we are best friends because you
wouldnt understand. the explanation is full of too many
inside jokes and made up words. its full of too much care
and too many tears, too many laughs, and too many blonde
moments. i dont think i will ever be able to give you a better
reason except shes always been there for me.

sometimes its the smallest decisions
that can change your life forever.

im 99% sure that he doesnt like me,
but its that 1% that keeps me holding on.

it seems we're living the American Dream
but the people highest up got the lowest
self-esteem the prettiest people do the
ugliest things for the road to riches & diamond
rings. we shine because they hate us.

So im single with no intentions of looking for a guy.
For once im going to let him find me

most people don't know who they are;
that's why they lie.
they're afraid someone else
will figure it out before they do.

nothing of me is original.
i am the combined effort of everybody i've ever known.
(i love it. it makes me think)

girls aren't complicated.
i mean...how hard is it to
say "you're pretty!"
-and- give us chocolate?

Could this be out of line
to say you're the only one
breaking me down like this?
You're the only one
I would take a shot on.

Adema- Speculum lyrics

There's so many people dying
You complain about your situation
What about me?
Half the world wouldn't know
What it's like to lose your seed
Maybe you can understand

(How It feels)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me

The guilt has lasted, you still cry
It was all planned out
Why was I last to know?
Don't you trust in me?
The table's cold, it's too late
To make up for these mistakes
Maybe you can't understand

(How It feels)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How It feels)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday

(How It feels)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How It feels)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday

Sorry

I'm sorry I'm not everything you want
Or exactly the way you think I should be
Sorry I made mistakes
I'm sorry that I'm me

Sorry I can't do everything
Exactly good or right
Sorry that I did what I did
I'm sorry I darken your light

I'm sorry for my mistakes
I'm sorry that i am here
I didn't mean to hurt anyone
I'm sorry for the tears

I'm sorry I pretended
and wasn't my self all the time
sorry if I hurt anyone
I'm sorry if I 'm not fine

Sorry I didn't know
that things would end up like how they are
Sorry I coun't stop
I'm sorry I drifted so far

Reasons Why Chucky Cheese Is a Thrid World Country...

Bad food

Run down machinery

Semi cultural folk bands

Deplorable exchange rates

Child labor