Thursday, September 20, 2007

trials

During a cold winter night in the small village of Salem a group of young puritan girls between the ages of nine and twenty gather around a container filled with water. Tituba, a slave owned by the Parris’, cracked an egg open and poured it into the water. The girls peered in to see what their future foretold. The image appeared to be of a coffin. The youngest girl Betty (age nine) begun to cry (Bartel 78-81). Within a year 150 people are accused of witchcraft, 19 of the accused are hung, one is crushed to death, and many die in prison awaiting their trial. The tragedies of their deaths are the Salem Witch Trials (Boraas).
There are many theories about how the Salem Witch Trials begun. Some include the combination of church and state, a division between churches, and even the dispute between men and women. The most logical one appears to be that emotional upset of the children in Salem and the insecurities among the villagers.
In the 1600’s Satan was believed to cause many problems. He was associated with disease, horrific events and anything else that classified as bizarre or unable to explain. The puritan life style was strict compared to many other religions. They had to appear in church every Sunday regardless of health. Many laws based on their religion, which is why so many believe that church and state played a large role in the trials (Boraas).
The children of Salem grew up believing that witches, dragons, and other mythical creatures were real. With the world telling them that these things were real, it could be easy to live in fear. To put this in a present day situation it would be the same as telling a child that the monster under their bed is real. The child would probably respond in the same since that Betty did. At first, Betty would cry for no reason. During the end of winter, she would not move then when she was touched she would throw herself around and scream. This caused her to gain attention from others. Soon her cousin Abigail Williams (age eleven) was acting in the same ways. It is probable that Betty’s illness was Abigail’s fault. Abigail could of easily of pressured Betty to remain silent about Tituba and her style of watching the young girls (Bartel).
In January of 1692, the Parris household called for the doctor. After analyzing the two girls, he concluded that witchcraft was the reason that the girls acted so bizarre. Soon a group of girls (most of the girls’ parents died in Indian wars a few years before) started to act the same way that Abigail and Betty were acting. The final number of afflicted girls was eleven. The villagers demanded to know who was tormenting them. Tituba was the first name given. In order for her to save herself, she named off other people in the village. It was easy to believe that the accused were witches, they were lower class, not sociable, and had speech problems. When the accused were in trial, the girls would act strangely and claimed that the spirits of the accused were attacking them. Villagers started believing what the girls were saying. Towards the end of the trials, many people said the girls were lying. During Rebecca Nurse’s trial, she voted innocent but the girls started to act bizarre. One man who was watching the trial claimed that one of the girls was sticking needles in her knee. That did not stop the judges from changing their minds to guilty though (Boraas). There was no way to prove that the girls were lying. They seemed to feed upon the fear of the town’s people.
By fall, what the girls had said affected almost every family. After Governor Phipps’ wife was accused, he ended the trials. After eighteen years after the trials, the government had paid 24 families for their troubles. This also was the last time that spectral evidence was aloud in court (Boraas).
The Salem Witch Trials started out as a child’s fear, but ended as a group of girls hopes of attention. With the adults help the girls got the attention that they desired, though it cost many lives. The explanation of why the events happened may still be unknown, but there is a high probably that the reason they accrued were due to the emotional upset of the children in Salem and the insecurities among the villagers.

Friday, March 16, 2007

to do

When you feel like eating clean something gross ie the toilet

Clean your room

Put nail polish on

Put lipstick on (ever tried eating with lipstick?)

Make a book with pictures of models and celebs, that you wish you looked liked. Everytime you're about to binge, look at your Thinsperation book.

Go to pro-ana sites

Learn HTML and make your own site

Drink lots of water

Feed your dog your food

Give yourself a makeover to distract yourself

Call a friend

Study yourself in the mirror

Take a picture of yourself naked and look at it when ever you feel like eating

Watch fat people eat - it will turn you off

Listen to the gross sound of other people eating

Get a job during meal times, to keep your mind off food

Sleep during meal times

No thanks I'm vegan

Fake sick

You will eat more on a darker plate than a lighter plate. Use smaller utensils plates in order to decrease food intake.

If forced to go to a restraunt order something you know you don't like

Brush your teeth often

Chew some food and then spit it out so that you have some flavour in your mouth

Buy thin clothes that are way to small for you, everytime you want to eat put them on

Be vain, we are "too good" to eat that food

And way too good for cheap fast food

Put a picture of your goal body in your wallet, everytime you want to buy some food you will see it

Put all the money you would spend on food in a jar. When it's full go and buy something nice

Go for a walk outside

Garden or water house plants

Email an ana buddy

Read

Get out an excercise or aerobic DVD

Drink Diet Soda

Try some Yoga

Put on a mud mask

Start a diary

Do some dancing

Have a shower or bath

Give yourself a pedicure

Rearrange your furniture

Buy some food and show it off to your family and friends, then feed it to your dog or the home less

Get on the scale

Do crunches

Chew on gum

Suck on some hard candy

Organize your CDs in alphebetical order

Go to a friend's place (but not for dinner)

Suck ice cubes

Hava some mints

Smokes are bad for you, but food is worse

Have a hairband around your wrist, everytime you feel like eating pull it. Food = Pain

Ask yourself before you eat "Do I really need this?"

When you feel like eating pinch your fat rolls

Don't eat be sophisticated

Smell your food to weight loss

Keep a food diary, everytime you are tempted to binge remember that you will have to write it in your diary later

Thats what friends are for :)

Last night i broke up with ryan... yeah he didn't take it to well.... he said i was his world..... bullshit.... he said that we could of talked it out..... but he told me to cut..... not good. i don't know if i can be with him.... i mean i have Justin and Steph.... they care. or at least apper to.

I broke his heart. he said that i was the reason that he was coming back. but i am not a good reason. i don't even feel anymore. i walk around numb. this damn numb feeling. like i don't know what my emotions are. Damn feeling....damn parents... damn past.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Kids say the darnest things.....

So when i was with Ryan it was pure lust.... so I broke it off..... today at lunch i get this text.....

FROM: Ryan Gaulding
I don't understand but understand why i say this you inbred whore, go fuck a rusty pipe and cut yourself till you bleed dry because you can't say no one cared.



why in the hell does he think that its OK to send these things....... silly little boys.......... so i guess that he was mature about it all........

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Pic-true



I don't know if that will work but if it does....... Hamsters rock.



I do agree that inmates because animals........

you spin me round.....

RYAN!!!!! god I feel like screaming but i know that no one can hear, well the person that i want to listen wont. I understand that the military is involded and yes I damaged military protety..... but a hickey isn't something that they should be concerned them. There are so many other things in the world going wrong....... wahoo off topic. back to the topic. Ryan. I can't even expel the words out of my mouth. You know it's bad. Hell I know it's bad! The thing is I like him but he's insane! He said that when I was in his arms that he wanted to choke me...... yeah that's a little weird.... but thats not all. He constantly gets mad at the world if i say anything wrong. a person shouldn't be affried to speak words that need to be heard. Our relationship is like a country under war. He is like the A. Hilter and i am left as towns persons who can't live in a country that is underway of dying...... our love is dying. wait.... Love? ha all he has for me is lust and i give into his little whimper and then it morphs into a thing; Pure Lust. no affection. jjust plain and simple lust. I know i need to get out. Damn it I want to get out. Rope please?

Friday, March 2, 2007

Kathleen Green
Mrs. Kelly
College Notetaking
2 March 2007
College research Project
There are so many reasons to go to college; getting a better job. My reasons however are for sense of personal achievement. I once was taught in one of my classes that in order to gain more freedom you must gain more knowledge. After secondary schooling many forget a majority of the things we learn, I, however, do not want that to happen. Many say that college is a waste of money but can you really say education is worthless? I do believe that education is something that is needed to better understand our world.
The college I choose was University of Central Missouri for many reasons. One of the main reasons that I choose this college is because of its location. The college is about 35miles away from Lee’s Summit. It is not far enough to where I would need to take a train to get home but it is far enough to were I know my parents wouldn’t check up on me without me knowing. It is also close enough to where I could walk to the main street. Another reason that I choose this school was because they have trap houses. Trap is one way that I release my anger. It is rare to find a college that has trap. Plus this would give me a job because the houses need to be stocked after every round.
This college is located in Warrensburg, MO (about 35 minutes from Lee’s Summit). They offer associate, bachelor, and master degrees. The only requirements to get into this college is you must have all the needed credits; English four credits, Math three credits, social studies three credits, and science two credits. There are about eight thousand students. The Majority is female.

Friday, February 9, 2007

none

The life we live will amount to the things we have done.... I have done nothing..... so in theory i ammount to nothing. i guess my parents are right.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

You make me sick...

yesterday i went to the doctors because i have had a stomic ache... well i went there and found out i have two infections... something i can't pronoun... and my major problem is unknwn as of this time... i am scarred shitless... i don't want to be like this... i have to take meds and all this crap... i get to go get an ultra sound on thursday... i don't want to know what i have.... isn't it enought that i am ill... do i need more wronge with me? how did i get this fucked up? god my life is like a glass filled with water.... and it's cracking... soon everything will be out in the open......

Last night my rents yelled at me.... i haven't talked to them since....... i don't plan to either......

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Pin-up

Ryan has been showing everyone my pictures.... i mean i am not wearing clothes in some. but i guess that it evens out... i mean i have shown people his pictures so is it fair?

Friday, January 12, 2007

cry's of pain

Today at my school there was a car act-a-dent and two boys and one girl was involded.... the boy and girl are in the hosptial....... the other boy is dead....... i walked past his girlfriend in the hallway....... she was crying and screaming at god.... she keep asking why god? i don't think i have ever heard a cry of pain so sad or depressing..... she just layed lump on the floor........ as everyone watched her..... god that was the worst sound in the world...

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Planned Parenthood

SO i want on the pill.... and if my mom says no. i am going up to pp to get it. so i need to start saving.... anyways i was also at the site and FINALLY i found something that talks about how life has a sexual part.

Why is sexuality so important?

All of us are sexual. Our sexuality includes

* our body and how our body works
* our biological sex
* our gender — our biological, social, and legal status as girls and boys, women and men
* our gender identity — our feelings about our gender
* our sexual orientation — straight, gay, or bisexual
* our values about life, love, and the people in our lives

And sexuality influences how we feel about all of these things and how we experience the world.

Thursday, January 4, 2007

Don't be...

Don't be too good, for I will miss you
Don't be too careing, for I might like you
Don't be too sweet, for I might fall for you

Ramdon Quotes

quotes

there's no past tense in loving someone;
either you do,
or you never did

sometimes maybe lost is best

Somewhere between our laughs, long talks on the phone, stupid fights, && our jokes, we fell in love.

i will be with you again

welcome to the revolution.
it's time for the weak to find retribution.
it's time for the lost to find a home.
it's time for believers to speak
into a microphone and sing.

You and I could make the whole world so jealous.

I know I shouldn't like him, because I know it could never work. So I convince myself I don't. Then I see him. He'll smile or put his arm around me, or just say... anything. And then all that logic and convincing myself just evaporates.

You're not even mine and I'm scared to lose you.

I know you want it just as badly as I do. What I don't know is why you can't just take a chance on me.

Do you honestly think anyone else is on my mind when I'm listening to that song?

If you aren't just a little bit depressed, then you aren't
paying very much attention to what's going on in the world.
//Pete Wentz

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming.
or the moment of truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive.
//Goo Goo Dolls

I have more feelings for you than any other girl ever will

You wouldn't be here if there wasn't something missing

I'm not a jealous person. I just want to punch every girl in the face that gives you a 2nd glance

Who would have ever thought it'd be me and you?

And if you think that I'll let you go, you're out of your mind

Really, I'm nothing exciting. I like simple things in life. I read like a nerd. I shop until I'm broke. Just like every other girl. But still you chose me. Maybe I'm more lucky than I thought


a part of me
wants to erase you
from my past
but another part of me
still wants you
in my future

star light; star bright;
first star I see tonight.
I wish I may. I wish I might.
have someone wish for me tonight.


I wonder when i pass by does his stomach do a flip? does he get nervous? does he ignore his friends, just to look at me? does he wait to see my smile? does he get sweaty palms? does he think to himself ... "oh gosh here she comes"?

Guys drink to forget about girls, girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor, when girls are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can't forgive, girls can forgive, but can't forget. When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl, when girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last.

when was the last time you've looked in a mirror?
'cause you've changed, yeah you've changed

the one thing i'll never get is, how
you turned out like ALL THE REST

if one day you notice that i
haven't talked to you in awhile,
it's not because i don't care anymore ;;
it's because you pushed me away.

dont look for the hottest guy or the most
popular jock. look for the guy that makes
you feel like you're actually worth a
second glance. the one that makes you happy
to be the person you dont have to try to be,
or want to be. the guy who isnt like all the
rest.. but completely different. yet, its why
you like him, because he isn't like any guy
you've ever known. he's just him


Listen to your friends when
they tell you hes a
bad thing
because they can see what
you refuse not to

You can't swim in a world this shallow

Hey, unfaithful, I will teach you to be stronger
Hey, ungraceful, I will teach you to forgive
Hey, unloving, I will love you.

Hes not worth your tears if,
you're not worth his heart

I don't forgive people because I'm weak.
I forgive them because I'm strong
enough
to understand that everyone makes mistakes

i always feel like ive said the wrong things. i constantly
obess over what i couldve done better. i wish i could just
let it all go

i couldnt tell you why we are best friends because you
wouldnt understand. the explanation is full of too many
inside jokes and made up words. its full of too much care
and too many tears, too many laughs, and too many
blonde
moments.
i dont think i will ever be able to give you a better
reason except shes always been there for me.

sometimes its the smallest decisions
that can change your life forever.

im 99% sure that he doesnt like me,
but its that 1% that keeps me holding on.

it seems we're living the American Dream
but the people highest up got the lowest
self-esteem the prettiest people do the
ugliest things for the road to riches & diamond
rings. we shine because they hate us.

So im single with no intentions of looking for a guy.
For once im going to let him find me

most people don't know who they are;
that's why they lie.
they're afraid someone else
will figure it out before they do.

nothing of me is original.
i am the combined effort of everybody i've ever known.
(i love it. it makes me think)

girls aren't complicated.
i mean...how hard is it to
say "you're pretty!"
-and- give us chocolate?

Could this be out of line
to say you're the only one
breaking me down like this?
You're the only one
I would take a shot on.

Adema- Speculum lyrics

There's so many people dying
You complain about your situation
What about me?
Half the world wouldn't know
What it's like to lose your seed
Maybe you can understand

(How It feels)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me

The guilt has lasted, you still cry
It was all planned out
Why was I last to know?
Don't you trust in me?
The table's cold, it's too late
To make up for these mistakes
Maybe you can't understand

(How It feels)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How It feels)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday

(How It feels)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How It feels)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday

Sorry

I'm sorry I'm not everything you want
Or exactly the way you think I should be
Sorry I made mistakes
I'm sorry that I'm me

Sorry I can't do everything
Exactly good or right
Sorry that I did what I did
I'm sorry I darken your light

I'm sorry for my mistakes
I'm sorry that i am here
I didn't mean to hurt anyone
I'm sorry for the tears

I'm sorry I pretended
and wasn't my self all the time
sorry if I hurt anyone
I'm sorry if I 'm not fine

Sorry I didn't know
that things would end up like how they are
Sorry I coun't stop
I'm sorry I drifted so far

Reasons Why Chucky Cheese Is a Thrid World Country...

Bad food

Run down machinery

Semi cultural folk bands

Deplorable exchange rates

Child labor